YOU GUYS. I sincerely apologize for not posting more these past few months. I know you all are very interested in my life and the food I cook, so for that, I apologize. Don’t think I didn’t think about it; every time I cooked something new, I took a picture. My photos app on my phone is literally filled with pictures of food. Which would be really weird if someone every got a hold of my phone. They’d open the photo app and hope to see selfies or pictures of puppies or something and all they’d get is food porn. How disappointing. But I am kind of proud of that fact so it really isn’t all bad.
I don’t normally make NYE resolutions because I never stick to them. Why say you are going to do something when in the depths of your soul, know you won’t do it? I try to live my life the best I can, one day at a time. If that means I eat a shit ton of pizza because I’m too stressed to cook, then that’s what it is. If I am feeling super motivated and meal prep ~healthy~ foods on Sunday for a long week, then wonderful! If I work out 4 days a week – that’s actually really great, but if I don’t make it to the gym that many times for whatever reason, than that’s okay too. I say this now with understanding and acceptance but I can promise you this wasn’t easy for me. I caught myself many times this semester feeling guilty or sorry for myself because I wasn’t meeting my health and fitness goals. Life got busy and I let it get to me. I am tired of beating myself up every time I “fail” at being a health conscious person. I am all for this awareness of healthy lifestyles and trying to make oneself better by adapting to a healthier lifestyle, but I am sick of feeling upset, disappointed, or guilty when I can maintain a ~perfect~ week. I know a lot of this is on me and my own goal setting abilities and mental health status, but I do place some responsibility on society at large. If you aren’t trying to lose weight or be healthier, than you are looked down upon or given the look. People are busy. Give your fellow human beings a break, will you?
So with this rant, guilt, shame and disappointment behind me, I am challenging myself to live in the present. To be here (in the figurative sense, not literal) every day and to take it one day at a time. I feel I miss so much when I am planning every little detail of my day, down to the time and how long it will take me to shower. Not that this isn’t helpful when I am stressed and busy because as some of you know, I forget to shower sometimes, but it isn’t necessary and I don’t need to be planning every second of every day. I probably will still plan my meals because you really can’t go grocery shopping without having a game plan. If I did, everything in my cart would be cookies and I would die of malnutrition. I am just aiming to put less pressure on myself. Ain’t nobody got time for self-induce stress. By doing so, I am confident that I will have an even better year than last. I am hoping for more happiness and less sadness, more acceptance and less disappointment and more flexibility and less rigidity.
And I challenge some of you, who may be similar to me (even if you don’t want to admit it) to cut yourself some slack. Give yourself a break. Choose to live your life and not a life you feel has been chosen for you by societies standards. But please don’t only eat cookies and cupcakes. Still be, you know, healthy and self-aware, just put less pressure on yourself.
Since this is a food blog, here are the pictures of all the things I’ve made over the last few months. I promise to be more consistent with posting recipes and instructions this semester. Thanks for being ever-so supportive of me! I couldn’t do it without you all. 🙂
- Spinach & feta quiche
- Spicy pork and green beans (think Chinese recipe)
- Cilantro lime chicken with pico and guac
- Pumpkin pork chili – sounds weird, but is SO good. I’ll do a separate post about it because it was that good.
- Quinoa fried rice
- Pork and bacon nachos 🙂
- Buffalo chicken toast